3.31am

it's like
my brain disfunctions
and I don't find the right words
like - I wish I can take back
all my fucked up decisions

like a whirlwind
i keep coming back to the start
but breathless, too breathless to 
continue the rounds of
sin and regret

it's like
i notice a difference
in the way i speak
but i can't seem to get myself
to snap back to who i used to be
like - i don't know how but i'm always
screwing it all up

you know?