worse things

i wish i never met you

because you are too beautiful

and the tingles you leave on the soft of my skin

are too delicate for someone

as scarred

and destroyed as i

i wish i never met you because

i know one day

you will feel the way i feel

and hate me for that

and you will hurt

i don't want you to hurt

i wish i never met you

so i could still paint a hundred portraits of

unknown faces and call them

'you'

and love you because it's not real

and i don't have to

realize i don't deserve you