filthy

i used to be pure

like

snow and 

cloudless days;

times when i could sleep through a fire

and knew no pain

i used to be pure from

horrors of

heartaches

i used to defeat nightmares

and conquer dreams

i knew no pain

but scars are all that are

left of me

now;

scars

scars

scars

etched on my body

heart

lifeline

i ruin myself because -.

i used to be pure

like

innocent eyes and

genuine laughter;

i was

somebody i now

cannot find

lost behind in

times when i knew no pain

and i

am now filled

with

nothing but -

i used to be pure like

fairytales

but even they have betraying

disappointing

gutting

truths behind the

happy endings; now

i have learnt and tasted

everything about

darkness

and digging my heart out

for you to stitch back

because you promised me so

was a pure mistake

listening to promises you were

bound to

break

and believing them, nonetheless;

you stitched me up

in ways for you to

reopen the wounds

that held

stale memories of

past heart breaks

whenever you

feel like it

just so you can watch me

bleed

and i bleed 

only for you

because you sweeten my life

and i bleed only for 

you

because the blood

tastes

so much

sweeter