like cancer

the hair on my skin

prickling like warning

but i do not feel cold

it is like my body no longer finds the

need to send signals

to my mind

it is like swallowing back explosives

until i grow expressionless

and i am deteriorating and

crumbling inwards

like cancer.

my energy draining but

i don't feel tired

i hold onto solid, heavy things to stop my

fingers twitching;

i shut myself up until

the weight on me is physically painful

heavy.solid.

eating me up.

when i hurt so badly it

tears me down

at least i can remind myself

i have emotions

despite it all.