ode to the sleepless

i hit solid wall and

drift backwards.

the valley of emotions unravel, 

like loose string

caught on the crook of 

hope

fleeting pass

my skin is too tight for my mind

so i strip down to an inner orifice.

i run nowhere,

hitting blanks and

i undress the fabric

of my inner self

until i am all around me.

i felt unfamiliar,

dwelled too long

in the cracks my shadows

carved into walls.

i travelled sleepless nights

to a land i cannot live in,

so i stumbled along my footsteps

tracing the lines i drew and

never coloured in.

then there was a strange light,

trapped in the blinds of my eyelashes

drying from the storm,

and i found rainbows

in the shape of you.

i learnt to hit a wall,

only to fall backwards

into your entire being

and live in you.

i found in the depths of your body

the traces of me 

i absent-mindedly drew,

and ran to your mind until i

found the hues i long abandoned

from myself.

[i shine.

i shiver.

i soar.]