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there are moments like these when

a passerby shows her magic tricks

but she sees right through it

moments like these when

she wraps herself up and

closes in away from the world

she can see her future burning

and she's run out of extinguishers.

she sings now without emotions

because there are certain songs

that hold too much of

her

it is a sickening gutfeeling when

you realize there was almost a pinch of something real

and you almost feel

what you've never felt in a while

and you remember

what it was like

to have feelings

but feelings never last, because

you're too scared to accept them

there are moments like these when

big words numb her

and she sits on a windowsill

counting the stars

on the tip of her fingers

silently

silently

she closes her eyes

and wishes for eternity

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close your eyes.