forge

these lips
bitten and bloodied
from frustration
hold the words of ache
that leave my mouth dry
coloured in wine as they 
bracket over cigarettes 
suffocating pleasure
moving silently
screaming words 
cutting through my mind
these arms these legs
scarred and tired
from the tugging 
the pushing and pulling and prying away
of everything trying to crush inwards
like the dark that 
curtains keep in
loud and forceful
these thoughts 
rape my mind
feeding my own poison
to the worst of my being
until all is heavy
bruised like 
these knuckles
this feigned happiness
always an easy disguise
they will believe 
the weight of a laughter
over the waves of tears
turned away
these eyes
squinted and sorrowful
they shine for 
nobody
they shine for 
nothing
anymore